Monday, 26 July 2010

What can I say.... Hi again ladies

Well ladies it has been a long time since I last told you what was going on in my life...... I know that some of you have known what has been going on, and others must have thought I disappeared from the face of the earth without a word.

I know that this has been mainly a stitchy type blog with a bit of everything thrown in from time to time for good measure. Well todays blog is slightly different ; as many of you share your trials and tribulations with your family of online friends. I too am about to tell you why I had disappeared for so long, and I am so sorry that I deserted you all.


You see back in March the man who I thought was my soul mate, and the love of my life turned around one day, and said that he was leaving me, for another woman. Without going into great detail you can imagine what depths I have trawled......... but now I am back.


I am afraid that since that day I found out this traumatic news I just couldn't stitch, I couldn't concentrate long enough to be able to. Life has been very difficult for both me and my son . But now with the support of some very lovely online friends I am going to try and start over again with my stitching. They have lifted me from that unhappiness to a place where I can find joy and happiness again. The hollow empty feelings have gone, and in fact now I think.... I have found a person who would make me happy again.......yes a man!!! So watch this space, as it is early days.


I may not post so often, as I am having to play a different role, and there are many things that need my attention. However, in all of this it has done me a great favour..... as you can see the pic at the top, this was me before all the heartache.... you could say a bit on the large side. Today I am 3 dress sizes smaller, and I feel better for losing the weight. This is a pic of me now below. I do wish though that I hadn't lost the weight from my face, but I am sure when I get eating properly again, no doubt it will fill out a bit more again.




I am afraid too that I have let my lovely garden get overgrown, and unloved, as I have not only been unable to tend it because of how I felt emotionally, but also because I have now been diagnosed with a neuropathy in my leg which makes me feel that I will fall over if I turn quickly or am on uneven ground, I have lost a lot of sensation in it, and have a numbness that affects the way I walk particularly in flat shoes, so I have to wear high heels most of the time when outdoors. I really need to get someone to help with the garden, but because things are a bit grim financially now I cannot afford to pay someone to do it. So I am sorry but there are no nice pics of my garden to show either.


Before the school holidays, I took my son and his friend to a beautiful place on Dartmoor one lovely sunny sunday. We took a picnic, and the dingy, so that the boys could have fun on the shallow river that is interspersed with boulders which came down into the river in glaciation times.The place is called Dartmeet. Below are a few of the pics that I took that day.

Stu & James

Stu acting the fool,





Stu trying to go cross eyed


Below are some pics that I took when Stu and I went to a motorbike show, on the seafront at Paignton one wet and windy Sunday lunchtime..... we even had a cone of chips each....... and Stu said to me ""this is good being able to walk along and eat them in the street, Dad wouldn't have liked us doing that"".










14 comments:

  1. Hi love, so good to see you posting again. Will read your blog with closer attention tomorrow, on my way to bed with horrible headache.

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  2. Oh Dawn when I saw you had posted on your blog I felt a smile come to my face.........welcome back!!!!
    Your blogging family will welcome you back with open arms....xoxoxoxoxoxo

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  3. So good to see you back, Dawn! Looking forward to seeing and hearing more about you and how life is going. Hoping for the very best for you and Stu, too. And BTW, you look fabulous!

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  4. Hugs from Finland! Great to hear from here on your blog, too.
    You look great!!!

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  5. I discover your blog & am happy you won all that life's pains.A big hug,Dawn.Couson

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  6. Oh Dawn - so sorry to hear of the break up - but it is good to 'see' you and things seem to be looking up .... take care .... (((hugs )))
    Val x

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  7. It's so good to see you posting again Dawn! *Hugs* One step at a time, my friend... I love the pictures of your trip with the boys and the motorcycle show. I'm glad to see you are getting out and having fun! We're here for you! Take care. *Hugs*

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  8. Glad to see you back up and trying to get back to doing some of the things you love.

    Dawn in AZ

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  9. As others have said, "one step at a time." And when you feel just too overwhelmed, tell yourself, "Time wounds all heels" -- it really does, you know. But you have proved that you are strong, and now -- welcome back to the Land of the Living!

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  10. So glad to see you back! I'm glad you have family to help you along. My sister just went through the same thing except her 'soul mate' decided he would become another person and like 'other' people, to put it mildly. Stitching help mends the heart. I'll be praying for you!

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  11. hi - great to see you back in the blogging world and that life is starting to get back into place. Nice bikes as well lol!

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  12. Sorry to hear about your loss and pain, but it seems you're on the upside of recovery! You look great, and with that son to keep you busy, you're probably not bored. Take care, and keep us posted. Hugs!

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  14. Thinking of you Dawn! Hope things are better now!
    xox
    Constance

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